Today (or yesterday or the day before yesterday, why don’t I just write Thursday) went well. Or at least I think so. It was nice seeing you. You asked me if there is something I want to tell you.
I was so close to tell you no I changed my mind there is nothing I want to tell you. And then just stand strong and keep my mind on app and forget about you and this whole craziness. Then you asked about the Hunters. Made my day.
I think I must still tell you. I think I must still tell you I am sorry and let’s forget this whole thing. I mean I don’t even know if you have a boyfriend and how serious is it.
But then I think even if you have one we can still do something. There is plenty ways working around a boyfriend. And then my mind tell me even more crazy shit.
It was nice seeing you outside of Tops. Just so natural. Without fancy hair, without a SPAR shirt. Sommer so in you slippers. Just nice. Just something else. By the way that’s one of my favorite (don’t think that’s the right word, but I’m sure you get the idea) things a girl can do. Come to town with their slippers. And you did it. 😉
I so want to tell you about my plans. Like first get this operation out of the way. Bliksem that’s a big thing in my life. With that goes loosing weight so that the operation be better.
Then the big one. To get away from Tops. You have no idea how this place frustrates me. And Ponku also.
Then there is my app. Dopshop Promotions. And the whole app building thing. More ideas. Good ones. And maybe you have an idea for an app.
Now comes the most difficult part to write. Because you can so easily take this wrong. If nothing is going to happen between us. Please look after yourself. Don’t get involved with bad men. Don’t get pregnant. I believe the only reason you won’t do something is because of the work thing, not because of me.
Then if one of us leaves Tops we can try, and we should. Me might change each other’s lives.
And even if you want to do something now. We keep it to ourselves and we do. No one has to know our business. We just work towards what we want. But you decide.